The wait is over

The results are in.  And I have succeeded!  I passed the bar!!
Now all I need is to be sworn in.  And of course do all the paperwork to become official.

 

Procrastination

is my middle name.

I’m sitting here, getting ready for people to come over for the Super Bowl, having made some very yummy snacks to partake in, and picked up the house so it is in somewhat of a presentable state.  Sitting next to me, well, is actually PMFC, but next to her is a table.  A table full of BarBri materials that I should be studying.  But I’m not.

I have essays to write, multiple choice questions to do, a practice test to read the “you a fucking idiot and this is why you got the question wrong” explanatory answers, and I can’t even tell you how many pages of the stupid long outlines to read.  And yet I’m sitting here.  Freaking out about everything that I have left to do, and how far behind I am in my studying, and how I had such a nice plan which worked for all of, oh, ZERO days.

All the planning in the world cannot make up for the one thing that I do best.  Procrastinate.  It’s what I’ve always done.  I wrote so many A papers in the wee hours of the night before they were do.  But.  I don’t think that’s the kind of crap I can pull with the bar exam.  In law school, I did alright, nothing spectacular, although I did manage to pull the Dean’s List at MO&OC on three occassions, one of which was a 4.0 (yeah, I’m patting myself on the back…bite me, it’s my blog!) and while I stayed caught up or ahead in my reading throughout the term I didn’t go beyond that.  And when it came to finals, studying began the week before, and I would diligently bust ass to learn everything that I somewhat knew.

So.  The bar exam is (less than) a month away.  And I’m doing what I can to keep up with class and my outlines, which are done and flagged and ready for the important stuff I need to remember to be placed on notecards.  Everything else is just kinda of their, reminding me that I haven’t done it yet.  And it’s scarin’ the hell outta me.  I don’t doubt that I can do what I need to for this damn thing, ’cause well, I’m fucking stubborn as hell, so I will do it.  But the question is.  When?  I’ve got a shit ton to get done in the next month.  And of course, what?  Obviously something are more important to do that others.  And that I need to figure out.
Oh, and I need to find a job.  But I’ve been procrastinating with that too.  I’ve found several to apply for, but haven’t.  Unless the deadline was approaching.   But I need to get my ass in gear!  I can only handle so much time with myself, and since the bar exam is only a month away, that means lots of time with myself and a whole lotta of nothing to take up the time.  Sure, I have hobbies and interests, but Mr. Incredible works, and quite honestly, I’ve gotten accustomed to studying in my spare time for the past 6 years for all the damn degrees I’ve been working for!  So, I’m kinda freaking out about that too…unemployment, job hunting, and what the hell is gonna fill my time when I don’t have to study anymore!

Okay, I have to go make some desserts or something that isn’t spicy or heartburn causing to go along with my snacks!

And then.  I will study while company is over and the game is on.  Again.  It’s what I’ve done for the past 4 years of my life.  What?  I didn’t start being antisocial and studying with company over or out at the bar until I entered law school.
Have a good one.  And.  Enjoy the game if you’re watching!

 

Freakin’ out…man

I’ve made a plan.  One that consists of 565 hours of studying for the bar.  That’s a combination of BarBri, KaplanPMBR and self-study.  And it doesn’t seem like enough.  I was aiming for 600 hours.  I’m 35 short, not to mention my tired self didn’t want to roll out of bed when Mr. Incredible left this morning at 7am, as planned.  And then I’ve spent a good portion of the day doing stuff online.  Obviously, since I’m here.  It wasn’t all play.  I had bills to pay and work e-mails to respond to.

But in this planned schedule there is little time for other things.  You know, cooking, cleaning, zoning out in front of the TV.  And there is also planned times when I’ll be studying while watching TV.  Um.  Hello…Super Bowl.  And American Idol!

And quite honestly, I don’t know that I have it in me to study for 6 hours at a time.  But at the same time, given other things I need to do (read: sleep, spend time with Mr. Incredible & Bam-Bam and attend BarBri & Kaplan) I don’t feel like I have any other options unless I want to forego sleep.  Which I can do if necessary.  It’s not like law school hasn’t aptly prepared me for that.

I think I’m freaking out mostly because all of a sudden the bar exam has become real.  Very real.

So I could really use some input.  Did ya’ll do the suggested 600 hours of studying?  How did you break up your study time?  Most importantly.  How did ya’ll not become alcoholics or caffeine addicts ’cause right now I’m living on lattes & Mt Dew, and look forward to a cold beer or Bailey’s far more than normal!!

 

Time flies…

Here it is, almost Christmas.  I’m done with law school and awaiting graduation.  It’s all rather surreal.  I’m still waiting for things to slow down so it can really sink in.  My life has been school and work and studying and working and squeezing everything into a short amount of time.  And now.  It’s just. I don’t know.  There are no classes, there are first week assignments, there are no pending exams.

At least not for law school.

I’m freaking out a bit about the fact that I haven’t really started studying for the bar like I’d planned.  It was a good plan too.  December 12th I was going to start with the early schedule, read my KaplanPMBR stuff, listen to some lectures from the law school, even read the 1st week of assignments from BarBri.

From that plan.  I’ve done nada.  Well, that’s not entirely true.  I did start listening to one lecture on Contracts.  And then got convinced that playing Uno with the fam would be much more fun.  Or maybe it was baking cookies.  Honestly, I have no idea how I thought I was going to get an early studying done with the holidays and my desire to spend as much time as possible with the family.

Plus I’ve had to get my study area prepared.  I got that done today.  For the most part.  I need to have Mr. Incredible hang some shelves in my little corner so that I can have a place for my beverages, hi-liters, pens, notecards, etc.  I put pictures up on the desk today.  It’s almost ready.  Come next Monday, that’s where I’ll be spending a vast majority of my time.

Time to finish watching MNF…another thing taking up precious study time…FOOTBALL!  Go Pack Go!

 

To finalize, or not to finalize…

That is the question.

I am finished with my bar application.  I think.  I’m freakin’ out a wee bit ’cause if I finalize I can no longer make changes.  No matter how many times I view the thing, I cannot make myself 100% sure that I haven’t overlooked something.

It has to be post-marked by Saturday.  But, as much as I may procrastinate with everything, when it comes down to deadlines, especially overly important ones such as my applying to sit for the February Bar exam…I hate procrastinating!  I can not, and will not, wait until Saturday to go to the post office.  In fact, this entire week revolves around picking up certified checks, going to the notary and finally to the post office.  So, at some point I must print.  I must become alright with finalizing my application.

I cannot believe how nerve-wracking this is.  Mr. Incredible just keeps shaking his head and telling me that I will be fine.  But what if I’m not!  What if I missed something?!  What if I added too much?!